Friday, January 20, 2012

They always watch over us

One of my biggest paranias is our car. I have a mjor fear of it breaking down.
The back passenger tire keeps going low and freaking me out about chirs driving it all over so today i decided we needed new one. We dont have much money but it had to be done.
I rememberd Papa ED talking about marion tire and i taken my old car there a long time ago.
Chris dropped papas name and the guy gave him a discount because i was his grandaughter. about $50 and thats alot these days!

Will always love you Papa.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Job hunt frustrations

So i have been job hunting continusaly since about may now and still nothing. I have 4 interviews that go nowhere and im getting so frustrated!
The replys i get in mail and email are all the same either its i havnt worked in 3 years so dont have experience or that i only have hair as a background.

The orginal plan of going to phloboblmy school didnt work since they dont have aid for a 5 week program and need $1000 up front. Hopefully i will be able to use tax money for the May session so i can at least get a new carreer.

I cant help but feel like a loser with all this crap. Chris works 2 jobs and is very burn out and takes it out on us. The problem is that he makes way more workng his part time job even 12 hours week than  i ever did doing hair.

We havnt been arguring as much lastly so thats good. i think he does see that im trying to find something but still have standerds. I wont do gas station or fast food unless we get down to absolute desperation.


Thankfully i have my dad who helps us out when he can/

I have to keep telling myself that Im not getting a job now because i am meant for more, that something perfect is going to come across me and i will love it and be happy again.