Support

I love my husband lots but i am trying to stay away from him. He is trying to quit smoking cold turkey and is not friendly!
I know how hard it can be especially since hes been smoking since he was a teenager.
I hope he can do it. I need him to do it.
They are way to expensive and frankly he stinks.
I am still actively looking for  a job but am still feeling like hes pissed at me every time i mention not using money or get frustrated about the car.
I am going out with a friend tonight to dinner and to NBDS and almost feel bad about it but damn it i need to have a life too.
I only have a few friends really and i want to feel special and loved too.

Disney on Ice

 I love to win free things so i sign up for stuff as much as possible. The local news station was giving away 4 free passes to Disney on Ice. Jack is in a complete Mickey Mouse stage right now so i thought it would be a great night. 
  

We got and Icee in a stitch cup. That he pretty much payed attention to that more than the show.

nana with the fish binoculars.
 I was so glad daddy got to come with us. He said it was worth coming just to see Jacks face when Mickey and minnie came out onto the ice.

Personal space!

People close to me know that im a hugger but i also on the opposite really dont like people freaking touching me!
I dont get massages because of that very reason.
I dont understand why people seem to think that is ok to do things without thinking.
Yesterday someone i know took the flower out of my hair while i was sitting at a table. WTF seriously are we 5 again? it may not look like it but it took a while  to get that damn thing in there and to stay with a bobby pin so pulling it out of my hair really did freaking hurt!
My response was "bitch give it back" I seem to have an automatic response of Bitches lately.
Later that same persons child was waaaaaaayyyy to cuddly up on my kid. NOT OK!!
Jack likes to attack hug kids his own size, a kid much older should not be in his personal space like that. I have seen Jack push and hit a kid who got into his space.
As a mother if you hear another mother say " hey get your kid away from mine" you really should be respectful of the fact there is a reason for it!

They always watch over us

One of my biggest paranias is our car. I have a mjor fear of it breaking down.
The back passenger tire keeps going low and freaking me out about chirs driving it all over so today i decided we needed new one. We dont have much money but it had to be done.
I rememberd Papa ED talking about marion tire and i taken my old car there a long time ago.
Chris dropped papas name and the guy gave him a discount because i was his grandaughter. about $50 and thats alot these days!

Will always love you Papa.

Job hunt frustrations

So i have been job hunting continusaly since about may now and still nothing. I have 4 interviews that go nowhere and im getting so frustrated!
The replys i get in mail and email are all the same either its i havnt worked in 3 years so dont have experience or that i only have hair as a background.

The orginal plan of going to phloboblmy school didnt work since they dont have aid for a 5 week program and need $1000 up front. Hopefully i will be able to use tax money for the May session so i can at least get a new carreer.

I cant help but feel like a loser with all this crap. Chris works 2 jobs and is very burn out and takes it out on us. The problem is that he makes way more workng his part time job even 12 hours week than  i ever did doing hair.

We havnt been arguring as much lastly so thats good. i think he does see that im trying to find something but still have standerds. I wont do gas station or fast food unless we get down to absolute desperation.


Thankfully i have my dad who helps us out when he can/

I have to keep telling myself that Im not getting a job now because i am meant for more, that something perfect is going to come across me and i will love it and be happy again.

Whats in a name?

I have decided to start using my talents of sewing and creativity and try to make some extra money.

I am very exctied to take Jack on his first plane ride to Oklahamoa in May so it got me thinking about fun stuff to keep him busy on the plane. 

I looked around for stuff and its all pretty expensive but after searching and thinking i have found a few things that look fun so i made them myself. 

I still need to do some tweaking in the desgins but i like them so far. Everything will be made out of old clothes, crib sheets, random material in my house so cost effective. 

Jack calls these garages

Garages folded up ready to go

I pod nano case to hold headphones.

Crayon wallet!

Crayon wallet folded to go.

Front.

Now i just need to figure out a name for my "shop" that will be the name of the Etsy shop and when i do craft fairs too.

Fun times

Tonight was the My Omaha Mommies 4th birthday party.
Tons of fun. I won the award for " most likely to have a reality t.v. show" im not sure if there telling me im  a drama queen or just have a really interesting life. But hey if is a contest im gonna take some bitches out. Random i know, i have been watching Bridal Plasty about Brides that get plastic surgery and a dream wedding if they win.
I also won a 10 person dinner at Cheeseburger in Paradise. We have never been there but i think it would fun, hard to narrow it down to just 10 people though.
Its nice to be around supportive moms who im sure are sick of my bitching about monster boy and husband but sometimes you really just have to get it out somehow.
I love going on the playdates and have become very close to a few of the moms which is great for Jack too.